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thank-you to my toddler – waiting for baby sister
It’s hard to believe that my pregnancy with your sister is entering the last month. It feels like yesterday that I got that positive test. I picked you up from daycare and whispered “you’re going to be a big sister,” and you whispered “baby.” All those rough first-trimester afternoons where I held you close on…
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thank-you to my toddler
It’s hard to believe that my pregnancy with your sister is entering the last month. It feels like yesterday that I got that positive test. I picked you up from daycare and whispered “you’re going to be a big sister,” and you whispered “baby.” All those rough first-trimester afternoons where I held you close on…
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our new rainbow
Around June of last year, I started to feel ready again. Whenever the decision is made to open up your heart again to great love, and potentially great loss, it brings about the cautious optimism that often accompanies “We’re trying again.” My heart was ready in June, and our newest rainbow baby was ready in…
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is she your first?
We all have our own personal stories. When a question from a stranger, seemingly harmless, challenges our story, we are forced to question how much we actually want to reveal. For are forced to instantly decide what’s appropriate to share, and what’s not. In my case, now that my little baby is truly a toddler, she…
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three years ago: missing darla
“Your eyes saw my unformed body; all the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be.”Psalm 139:16 NIV Three years ago today was both the best day and the worst day. We said “hello” and “goodbye” to a beautiful little girl that wasn’t meant to stay here,…
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beautiful little smudges
I like a clean-ish house. I was rushing around my kitchen this past week, trying to get a good cleaning in between work emails. I had about 30 minutes before I needed to leave and get Gracie from daycare. Counters: check, dishes: check, floor: check…and then I stopped. I saw the smudges on the patio…
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the day I wanted to blog, but then I didn’t do it
I have had this window open on my phone since SATURDAY. I haven’t blogged in far too long, and I really wanted to sit down to write. It’s something I love to do. So why did an entire Saturday go by without me taking 20 minutes to sit down and write? I decided to take…
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on your birthday eve
Gracie Kate, where has this year gone? I still remember the feeling of your newborn body cozied into me, sleeping the day away. They say “Don’t blink, you’ll miss it.” I tried to drink it all in, and yet, it passed just the same. These days, I have to chase you down for a kiss!…
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9 months in, 9 months out
This post has been brewing for a while now, effectively since you were born, and definitely since you crossed the 9-month threshold. Suddenly, you have been alive in the world longer than you were alive inside of me. Just as the first days of pregnancy looked nothing like the last moments, life now looks nothing like it…